This past month has contained such a range of emotions for
me. Two months ago as we prepared to go to North Carolina for training with
SIM, I wrote in my journal how exhausted I was both emotionally and physically.
As the day draws near for our third child to enter this world, I am weary and long
to be done carrying this child. My body seems to be falling apart, and I am
easily frustrated at the weakness of my muscles.
However as I ponder all that has gone on during this last
trimester, I am completely overwhelmed with gratefulness by how the Lord works
through our struggles. This daily reminder of my own weakness points me to the
fact that I can do nothing apart from depending on Christ for his grace and
strength. I am also reminded of how often I take for granted a strong and
healthy body. I must learn like Paul to be content in any and every situation. I hope this truth will prevail in my mind and that I will
continually exhibit a grateful heart before the Lord each day that he gives me
life on this earth.
Yesterday, the kids and I ventured out to the park near our
house. While there, I saw three young girls and a young guy who all had
children ages 6 and under. Whether they had never married or were already
divorced, each of them was raising their children alone. I cannot imagine the
heartbreak of their situation nor the amount of work and stress that fills
each day in trying to raise their children alone.
In a world where Godly men who love and cherish the wives
are a rare treasure, I cannot verbalize enough how deeply blessed I am to have my
husband by my side. He not only continues to provide for our family but also
constantly strives to help me around the house, build his relationship with our
children, and be the spiritual leader that God has called him to be. Kevin’s love
and support is priceless as he encourages me daily to persevere and finish this
season well.
